#7 on romace
from me to you | letter #7
Dear Reader,
I used to be a real lover girl. I loved romance. I loved the idea of love. I’ve always been a bit obsessive about love. I’m the type of girl that always has to have a crush, and then it consumes me! A true hopeless romantic.
My last relationship left me feeling more hopeless than anything. I’ve become a bit of a cynic when it comes to matters of the heart, and I find it disappointing. It’s almost Valentine’s day and I have been mourning the loss of my love of love.
Am I damaged? Is this something I can heal or is this just the reality of growing older? The rose colored glasses have come off and I think I’ve lost them.
Part of me hopes it’s just a phase because being ignorant in love is so fun and pure.
I am very hopeless. I find it difficult to believe there are good men in the world. And if there are, they are few, far between and married.
I will always be a romantic in a sense. I romanticize the little things in life. I try to find beauty in everything. Yet, I am not naive enough anymore to believe that I will find a man who will romance me. A man who will be honest, strong and pure.
I mourn that I may never be head over heels again. That I will never get butterflies again. I am heartbroken because I feel I didn’t get to experience it enough and I will never experience it again.
⟡ #75hardstylechallenge notes
#75hardstylechallenge continues and here are some notes:
〰 Comfort is Key: Comfort is one of my main values when getting dressed. I don’t love it because I feel like it’s very easy to fall into unkempt, but alas, I love being comfortable.
〰 My style words: comfort, ease, classic, chic
〰 I have a hard time incorporating comfort and handmade value with chic.
〰 Structured yet soft
〰 Fun is not a priority. Harsh but true. Often I find myself chasing fun out of fear of being boring but doesn’t feel natural.
〰 Don’t overthink it! KISS - Keep it simple stupid!
⟡ media diet
→ watching
Continuing my 500 millionth rewatch of SATC but finally got around to watching some movies! I had a little double feature of Gentlemen Prefer Blondes and Father of the Bride. I definitely preferred Blondes - I just love 50’s movies. There was a type of glamour that you just don’t see today. The fashions, the colors, the way they speak and carry themselves is all just so fabulous. Father of the Bride was less entertaining but I see why so many people love it. It has that Nancy Meyers can’t fail formula.
X LR